Winner, winner, chicken dinner. For the benefit of my own ego, I will give myself this virtual pat on the back.
I wrote 59,000 words in the month of November, as part of National Novel Writing Month. That's around 200 pages, give or take on the font. It's not that good, but I've sure as hell come up with a few ideas for how to make it better, which I'll be doing soon. I actually need to finish the book. I'm about 95% done. But, for the purposes of NaNoWriMo, anyone that writes 50k+ words is a "winner" so goooo me. Says nothing about the quality of content, but I think when it's done (which will likely be in several months... yay editing and re-writes!) it'll be liked by at least... three people. That's right, I am making the bold claim that there will be at least three people besides myself who like more than they dislike (which technically counts as "liking" something) the book that I just finished writing. Once I'm done editing and rewriting parts of it, that is. I hope that you all hold my feet to the fire on this one. Don't let me get out of my lofty goal.
All joking aside, it's been a crazy experience. I swear I've only used the thesaurus maybe a dozen times, the dictionary dozens more, and I am going to go donate some money to wikipedia after this post because being able to look up articles on things like the nyc subway was invaluable to adding little references to things that I've never even seen. Google street view is awesome, too. Like I mentioned in a post the other day, I feel so lucky to live in this unprecedented age of technology. Every generation likes to feel like they're special, and we do have many similarities to those who have lived and died before us, but we really do live in a remarkable era, absolutely unparalleled by any other time in all of history.
I think a lot about what caused my dad to do what he did, and I believe a lot of it was a loss of hope. It's how he and I will always differ, because I (despite all my bitching and criticism) am an optimist. I believe that things will work out. Right now, we're at this weird point where we've had a vast rush of technology, and our sense of ethics, our idea of responsibility, hasn't caught up. We'll get there. And if not, the planet will still be here. It will survive.
When I die, I believe that my conscious existence will completely cease. Some will remember me. They too will eventually die. Maybe I'll be lucky enough to do something worthy of being remembered. Some day, even that will fade into obscurity. Regardless of how long I am remembered, or how quickly forgotten, the atoms that compose my current existence-- what I believe is all that I am-- will persist for a very long time. I take comfort in that.
I went on a tangent. Something I do. You just have to put up with it. I blame the blog-as-confessional thing I had going in October.
I wanted to give a brief update, since most of my writing over the past several days has been dedicated to NaNoWriMo. I'm over 13k words into my novel, which I've tentatively titled Lightcap.
If you're interested in checking it out, I've posted a synopsis and several excerpts, which you can read by clicking on this link. Keep an eye out for more news. I hope to have a finished product by the end of the year, or by early 2013 at the latest!
For the month of October, I wanted to kickstart my creative side by writing a post every day. I'll be very honest, I didn't think I would finish. I've struggled with follow through for my entire life. It's not that I don't have a passion for creating-- in fact, it's probably the one single thing that has brought me the greatest amount of joy-- but rather that I tend to be easily bored and am prone to distraction.
As I get older, I find that I have more of a desire to DO something... Something worthwhile, something lasting. Maybe this is just simply an acknowledgement of my eventual demise, a desire to make an impact before I fade away into the obscurity of history, whatever you want to call it. Labels aside, I've taken a little bit of time each day to write something, and now I'll be branching out to other projects. Starting tomorrow, I'll be working on my first book, as part of NaNoWriMo. I've been playing guitar more, reading more, listening to podcasts. Basically trying to stimulate my mind, maybe rousing some long-dormant neurons and spurring them to activity. read more
Today was my first 8am day. I had a great morning. Still woke up too damn early, but I figure it will take awhile to get acclimated to waking up later. I spent some time hanging out with the dog, then walked down to the transit center and rode the light rail in to work. Standing room only made it difficult to stand there and read, but I was able to make it through a few pages of Carl Sagan's The Demon-Haunted World: Science as a Candle in the Dark.
Given the difficulty of holding a Kindle on a packed MAX, I decided that podcasts and audio books would be a good supplement to reading materials. So now, I am subscribed to the following podcasts: The Atheist Experience, The Non-Prophets, Godless Bitches, The Geologic Podcast, The Skeptics Guide to the Universe, Common Sense with Dan Carlin, and the Think Atheist podcast. I'll be looking for some audio books tonight, but I'm open to any recommendations. Same goes for podcasts. read more
Friday! Woo! This is a particularly special Friday, for a few reasons. I have Monday off, since it's my birthday, so a three day weekend is always appreciated. More importantly, I'm moving to an 8am-5pm shift starting next Tuesday, so today is my last day coming in to work at 4am. Happy birthday to me! read more
Testing, testing, 1 2 3. Yep, still here, still being fucking rad. I live in Oregon now, it's sweet. I get to see a mountain fairly often in the distance, and I haven't seen one god damn drop of snow-- a true miracle for someone used to Ohio winters. I really enjoy it out here, although my employment situation leaves a bit to be desired. In a way, I'm just happy I have a job, since I know there are many folks who'd kill to be in my position. That said, I am the very definition of under-employed, and it simultaneously stresses me out and bores me to tears. I hope all of you are doing well. I can't believe it's been almost a year since I updated this blog. I'll update more soon, promise.
I know that some days will be better than others, but I feel really down today. I'm not even entirely sure why-- I had a good evening last night with some excellent friends and I've been getting enough sleep. For some reason I just feel morose. I'm having a hard time focusing on things, and I am more easily irritable than usual. I think it may have something to do with Katy's birthday being this Friday, at least in part. Everything just feels so void without her. read more
I apologize for not posting this sooner, there has been a lot going on in my life and to be honest my head still hasn't stopped spinning. To say that my world has been hectic as of late would probably be the understatement of the century.
For anyone who doesn't know (and I apologize for this being how you find out, but I've tried reaching out to as many people as I can think of to let them know), Katy passed away on Friday, January 14th at around 2:15AM. It was a really shocking and terrible timeline of events, and I'm going to do my best to tell the entire story as best I can. I really miss her, and I'm hoping that by putting my thoughts down it may help in the process of healing and provide me some sense of closure. read more
So far 2011 has been a heckuva year. I'm really sorry if my tweets and facebook status updates have been somber and melancholic as of late, things have not been ideal in my personal life. Katy has been dealing with some undefined illness (if you follow me on twitter or are friends with me on facebook, I'll spare you the rehash-- needless to say it's been troubling, frustrating, and unresolved), our 2 month old puppy got sick, and I have been struggling with trying to get registered for classes. At this point, it looks like I'm going to have to make some student loan payments due to the ineptitude of ITT (their inability to successfully mail a transcript) and the laziness of Franklin (their seeming lack of desire to register a new student). Money is always troublesome. There is never enough of it when you need some, and when you have a surplus it always seems to disappear. read more
Current project: Working on self-publishing my debut novel, The Lightcap.
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- Punk rock story
- 10ve (a short story)
- God's Other Love Chid on Pro-Lie
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- Camille on The Shamosphere
- Bob on Love will win in the end
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